Hi Everyone and welcome to my latest endeavours to get people aware.
Firstly, no one understands the misery caused by Abuse than myself. I've suffered all my life and even now at my age, I don't forgive those that tried to ruin my life. However, life has to be grabbed by both hands and there are ways to achieve happiness if you believe.
I know the feeling of fear, guilt and lonliness, and even now I rarely sleep through the night and at one time the nightmares wouldn't leave my sleeping mind, but we can get over these hurdles with the help of our own determination and courage and the help of those we love and trust.
I often think what would really wind my father up. What did he hate and what didn't he hold dear. Basically nothing, for these abusers don't care. They simply take what they want and leave a hollow shell that used to be a person. But.... I now know deep in my heart that he thought I would end up in the gutter, alone, used goods that no one wanted, but he was wrong!! My revenge has been a dish best served cold. I have waited my time and through my books and through media coverage, I exposed him and those around him and I felt no shame. I felt free!!
Total relief didn't come until he was dead, but even before that I went out into the world as a young woman and I educated myself, worked hard, kept clean and believed in myself. You can do it too!
I've got what he never had. I've got the love of my husband and children and the respect through being brave enough to speak out. I've had hard times, but I still have me and I never give up trying to improve as a person. I've taught my children to love and respect, to have pride and determination and to be aware and studious of those around them.
Very recently I was out walking with my husband, ( I'm trying to get fit ) and we were walking around a local lake area that is very beautiful and many people go walking, bird watching and wildlife researching. As we neared the end of our walk, I instantly noticed a man who seemed out of place. He looked at me from behind dark skiing glasses and fidgeted at his crouch. Yuk, I thought and as he looked away, I watched him shifting about and he stared after two youngsters who were doing some school work. Lots of schools and colleges use this area for nature work! I immediately got that gut instinct that told me he shouldn't be there. I walked towards the reception of the lake and turned back to see him hiding in some of the outbuildings there and I told my husband I would report it to the Reception. I reported it not once, but three consecutive days running as he was there every time I was. He wasn't a bird watcher, he had no camera, nothing and it made my skin crawl. On my final attempt to report him, a man at reception laughed at me when I told him. " Oh it could be innocent, he might be a volunteer, you're over reacting...." Was I, I don't think so. This is the sort of thing that happens a lot, no one takes things seriously, but I called the police and reported it. I don't know what happened after, but I wasn't treated like a nutter from the police and I was thanked for being observant. I haven't seen him since!!! Don't be scared to speak out and ask questions, don't be afraid that you are wasting police time, PREVENTION is better than CURE.
I'll be back again soon as I've lots more to say, but in the meantime, ENJOY life, get out there and don't be a victim and never allow your abuser to ruin your life. Stay Strong. Jennyxx
Firstly, no one understands the misery caused by Abuse than myself. I've suffered all my life and even now at my age, I don't forgive those that tried to ruin my life. However, life has to be grabbed by both hands and there are ways to achieve happiness if you believe.
I know the feeling of fear, guilt and lonliness, and even now I rarely sleep through the night and at one time the nightmares wouldn't leave my sleeping mind, but we can get over these hurdles with the help of our own determination and courage and the help of those we love and trust.
I often think what would really wind my father up. What did he hate and what didn't he hold dear. Basically nothing, for these abusers don't care. They simply take what they want and leave a hollow shell that used to be a person. But.... I now know deep in my heart that he thought I would end up in the gutter, alone, used goods that no one wanted, but he was wrong!! My revenge has been a dish best served cold. I have waited my time and through my books and through media coverage, I exposed him and those around him and I felt no shame. I felt free!!
Total relief didn't come until he was dead, but even before that I went out into the world as a young woman and I educated myself, worked hard, kept clean and believed in myself. You can do it too!
I've got what he never had. I've got the love of my husband and children and the respect through being brave enough to speak out. I've had hard times, but I still have me and I never give up trying to improve as a person. I've taught my children to love and respect, to have pride and determination and to be aware and studious of those around them.
Very recently I was out walking with my husband, ( I'm trying to get fit ) and we were walking around a local lake area that is very beautiful and many people go walking, bird watching and wildlife researching. As we neared the end of our walk, I instantly noticed a man who seemed out of place. He looked at me from behind dark skiing glasses and fidgeted at his crouch. Yuk, I thought and as he looked away, I watched him shifting about and he stared after two youngsters who were doing some school work. Lots of schools and colleges use this area for nature work! I immediately got that gut instinct that told me he shouldn't be there. I walked towards the reception of the lake and turned back to see him hiding in some of the outbuildings there and I told my husband I would report it to the Reception. I reported it not once, but three consecutive days running as he was there every time I was. He wasn't a bird watcher, he had no camera, nothing and it made my skin crawl. On my final attempt to report him, a man at reception laughed at me when I told him. " Oh it could be innocent, he might be a volunteer, you're over reacting...." Was I, I don't think so. This is the sort of thing that happens a lot, no one takes things seriously, but I called the police and reported it. I don't know what happened after, but I wasn't treated like a nutter from the police and I was thanked for being observant. I haven't seen him since!!! Don't be scared to speak out and ask questions, don't be afraid that you are wasting police time, PREVENTION is better than CURE.
I'll be back again soon as I've lots more to say, but in the meantime, ENJOY life, get out there and don't be a victim and never allow your abuser to ruin your life. Stay Strong. Jennyxx